tabula rasa

re·flex

ˈrēˌfleks/

noun

1. 1.

   an action that is performed as a response to a stimulus and without conscious thought.

Thoughts:

In the realization that we've revealed too much of the precious treasures the King gifted and entrusted to us to guard, and shared them with any wandering adventurer who was curious enough to knock - when we unveil too much of a valuable map that was to remain a secret, only to be shared with the most worthy pursuer, is it a normal reflex to seek change?
Is it normal to want to relocate where the fortress once stood; to seek as many new experiences as you possibly can, in order to regain a sense of personal mystery and untouched identity to guard once again?
Is this a reason why people have urges to cut their hair, make abrupt changes to their appearance or personality? - The reason for a sudden raging desire to improve and create untouched, untampered characteristics that never existed before?
Sometimes I feel moved to destroy the smallest quirks that devise "me" so I can feel like an unused scratch card once again.
But I know that I'm so much more precious than a disposable scratch card.
Help me ease this restlessness.